2 Corinthians 5:17 - Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation....

A letter of apology.

Sorry!

 

Dear Woman in the Silver Kia Soul,

I really messed up today.

You see, I had been given a double dose of grace yesterday and then I did not pass any of that on today.

And I feel horrible.

So horrible in fact that I almost became a stalker this morning and followed you to your destination. Forget the fact that I would have been late to work…it was that important to me that I get a chance to apologize.

Yesterday I thought I had made a HUGE mistake in my job. I missed a deadline and was going to have to tell my boss that what he trusted me to handle I had let fall through the cracks. I was going to have to fall on my sword and ask for forgiveness.

It was one of those moments when the bottom drops out of your stomach and you just want to puke…literally.

But God, as always, had my back and the door that I thought was closed He opened. I was spared having to explain why a task wasn’t going to be completed.

Today, you made a mistake and cut me off in traffic.

You were extremely apologetic and even took the time to roll down your window and apologize to my face.

And what did I do?

Well, I acted like a total jerk. I yelled that you needed to be more careful in this kind of traffic. And I told you that your crazy weaving in and out down the entire road was going to get someone hurt.

Then you looked at me with a sort of sad pity in your eyes and apologized again.

After I rolled up my window I realized what a HUGE mistake I made…again. And I got that sinking pit feeling in my stomach…again.

You see, God quickly reminded me of the grace He had bestowed on me not even 24 hours before. I had a chance to share His grace with you and I totally blew it.

I am so sorry.

I cannot change my actions from this morning, but I pray that I will see you again in traffic and get a chance to apologize to you in person. And I pray that you will forgive me even though I did not offer that to you.

Until then maybe God, in His infinite ways, can make sure you see this so you’ll know how much I regret how I acted.

With sincerest apologies,

The Woman in the Purple Honda Fit

 

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  • Mia

    Dear Mindy
    I am proud of you. I also hope you will be able to apologize to her in person, for I know that in the end, we hurt ourselves the most by being rude to others!
    Much love
    Mia

  • http://susanstilwell.com/ Susan Rinehart Stilwell

    I can identify, Mindy. I’m grateful for His new mercies every morning, and need to remember to pass them along at every opportunity. I’m with Mia – praying for a divine appointment.
    Big hugs from VA

  • http://www.facebook.com/ronda.roethle.5 Ronda Roethle

    Oh, it is so awful when we behave like that! When will we learn?! Thank God He continues to bestow His mercy and grace on us – even when we don’t deserve it. Years ago I treated an elderly woman with such disrespect – I feel sick to my stomach just thinking about it. I know God has forgiven me, but I never had the chance to ask forgiveness from the woman I hurt. Learning daily to live in His grace. Praying for you Mindy – thanks for sharing. God bless ~

  • http://canigetanotherbottleofwhine.blogspot.com/ Kate Hall

    Oh, I’ve been there. It’s that opportunity to give grace and I completely miss it. Then I mourn that I missed it. And feel garbage for my attitude. Ugh.

  • http://www.facebook.com/BarbaraIsaacCroce Barbara Isaac Croce

    love this.. and I love that at the end of the day, He says, “I love you, child!”

  • patsy

    I totally get you! There are so many “If only”s in our life! We only get one chance with life but we get to do better with each new day! Blessings and hugs to you! patsy