Dear Woman in the Silver Kia Soul,
I really messed up today.
You see, I had been given a double dose of grace yesterday and then I did not pass any of that on today.
And I feel horrible.
So horrible in fact that I almost became a stalker this morning and followed you to your destination. Forget the fact that I would have been late to work…it was that important to me that I get a chance to apologize.
Yesterday I thought I had made a HUGE mistake in my job. I missed a deadline and was going to have to tell my boss that what he trusted me to handle I had let fall through the cracks. I was going to have to fall on my sword and ask for forgiveness.
It was one of those moments when the bottom drops out of your stomach and you just want to puke…literally.
But God, as always, had my back and the door that I thought was closed He opened. I was spared having to explain why a task wasn’t going to be completed.
Today, you made a mistake and cut me off in traffic.
You were extremely apologetic and even took the time to roll down your window and apologize to my face.
And what did I do?
Well, I acted like a total jerk. I yelled that you needed to be more careful in this kind of traffic. And I told you that your crazy weaving in and out down the entire road was going to get someone hurt.
Then you looked at me with a sort of sad pity in your eyes and apologized again.
After I rolled up my window I realized what a HUGE mistake I made…again. And I got that sinking pit feeling in my stomach…again.
You see, God quickly reminded me of the grace He had bestowed on me not even 24 hours before. I had a chance to share His grace with you and I totally blew it.
I am so sorry.
I cannot change my actions from this morning, but I pray that I will see you again in traffic and get a chance to apologize to you in person. And I pray that you will forgive me even though I did not offer that to you.
Until then maybe God, in His infinite ways, can make sure you see this so you’ll know how much I regret how I acted.
With sincerest apologies,
The Woman in the Purple Honda Fit